In the account last week of the demonic attack I experienced, I didn’t outwardly express doubt but I hid it in my heart. The battle was intense and although the Holy Spirit told me He would help me, I had to use all my strength to resist the enemy. Actually, when I thought about it, I knew my strength was not enough to resist and only with the help of the Almighty could I have come out victorious.
For several days after that battle I felt like something between me and my intimate Companion wasn’t right. He hadn’t fully withdrawn but He was offended by my attitude of “Why didn’t You help me?”
“Lord, be plain with me. What have I done?”
“You couldn’t have won that battle if I hadn’t helped you. By denying My help you have grieved Me, and My Spirit is very tender. You have hurt Me deeply.”
I dearly love my gracious Companion and didn’t realize just how hurt He was. Once I realized my denial of His help – accusing Him of failure – I was deeply ashamed. I also understood why the Bible says to offend the Holy One is to cut oneself off, and a fresh comprehension of the seriousness of my unbelief swept over me.
I bowed down before Him in contrition but even then it took some time to reestablish our beloved relationship of trust. He is a real Person just as we are, only pure and holy and faultless. He experiences joy and disappointment just as we do. Or perhaps I should say, we experience joy and sorrow just as He does. What a precious, sacred relationship we are privileged to have with Him!
To express unbelief in Him is possibly the ultimate insult to the Most Holy One!
Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please God,
because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists
and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Ephesians 4:30 And grieve not the Holy Spirit of God,
whereby ye are sealed
unto the day of redemption.
Unbelief is great disrespect for God (Isaiah 7:11-13). As faith “gives glory to God” (Romans 4:20), so unbelief casts reproach and scorn upon Him. Doubt and unbelief rob God of the honor He deserves for His awesome attributes and measureless mercy and grace.