Sowing and Reaping

2 Timothy 3:1-5

1 But understand this, that in the last days will come (set in) perilous times of great stress and trouble [hard to deal with and hard to bear].

2 For people will be lovers of self and [utterly] self-centered, lovers of money and aroused by an inordinate [greedy] desire for wealth, proud and arrogant and contemptuous boasters. They will be abusive (blasphemous, scoffing), disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy and profane.

3 [They will be] without natural [human] affection (callous and inhuman), relentless (admitting of no truce or appeasement); [they will be] slanderers (false accusers, troublemakers), intemperate and loose in morals and conduct, uncontrolled and fierce, haters of good.

4 [They will be] treacherous [betrayers], rash, [and] inflated with self-conceit. [They will be] lovers of sensual pleasures and vain amusements more than and rather than lovers of God.

5 For [although] they hold a form of piety (true religion), they deny and reject and are strangers to the power of it [their conduct belies the genuineness of their profession]. Avoid [all] such people [turn away from them].  Amplified Bible, Classic Edition (AMPC) 

Galatians 6:7-8 (AMPC)

Do not be deceived and deluded and misled; God will not allow Himself to be sneered at (scorned, disdained, or mocked by mere pretensions or professions, or by His precepts being set aside.) [He inevitably deludes himself who attempts to delude God.] For whatever a man sows, that and that only is what he will reap.

One kernel of corn will produce a corn stock with two or more ears. Lets say this stock has two ears. Each ear will average about 800 kernels so two ears per corn stock will have about 1600 kernels. If you’re a farmer that’s great. But if you’re dishonest, that’s an overwhelming return on your investment of sin!

Have you noticed that when you do something displeasing to the Lord He says little or nothing? The reason is that it isn’t necessary for Him to say anything. Your investment of sin will come back to you many times over! Those who practice sinning while claiming God’s name (Christian) wonder why they don’t have the relationship with Jesus that they want.

I John 3:4, 6 (AMPC) (emphasis mine)

4 Everyone who commits (practices) sin is guilty of lawlessness; for [that is what] sin is, lawlessness (the breaking, violating of God’s law by transgression or neglect—being unrestrained and unregulated by His commands and His will).

6 No one who abides in Him [who lives and remains in communion with and in obedience to Him—deliberately, knowingly, and habitually] commits (practices) sin. No one who [habitually] sins has either seen or known Him [recognized, perceived, or understood Him, or has had an experiential acquaintance with Him].

These verses are saying that habitual sin is not consistent with the Christian walk. Our political leaders, our entertainment industry, our sports clubs all glamorize gross sin. Worse, America exports sin. Even as Daniel prayed prayers of repentance in Daniel 9 by identifying with his nation, so let those of us who understand who we are in Jesus pray repentance and turning from sin for our nation.


A Vision

20 March, 2020. In the wee hours I saw an American flag with a yellow circle/heart bound in red located in the blue field of stars.


Flag – nationality, I.e. America.

Circle – God as eternal; an everlasting covenant.

Heart – the real person; God’s measure of a person.

Yellow – spirit of fear, sin, judgment, curse/plague.

Red – sin, wrath of God, Blood shed for sin. Holy Spirit fire, fear of the Lord.

Blue – Holy Spirit, healing as a heavenly reality, reminder of seeking the Kingdom of God FIRST.

Stars – promise of revival in God’s appointed time.


This simple vision is layered in meaning. The almighty, uncreated God has come down to observe the nation of United States of America. He sees fear and confusion. Chaos. Because of their broken covenant with Him, Americans are experiencing curses on their lives and bodies, plagues, financial hardship. Their sin has brought judgment. But Jesus’ blood is available for those who will humble themselves and repent and exchange fear that has torment for fear/reverence of God. The Holy Spirit is reminding Christians to seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. If American Christians turn from their wicked ways, God will bring revival according to His purity and holiness. Without holiness no man will see the Lord (Hebrews 12:14; Matthew 5:48)! Look up the commentaries on these two verses to see how men have negated their clear and obvious meaning.

American Christians are being addressed here because judgment begins at the House of the Lord.

I Peter 4:17 For the time has come for judgment to begin at the house of God; and if it begins with us first, what will be the end of those who do not obey the gospel of God?

Holiness is more than believing in God and reading your Bible. Even the devils believe God exists and fear Him. Holiness is the business of revering God and developing intimacy with Him, seeking to please Him every day in all our ways. God the Father is preparing a pure and holy Bride for His only Son! Holiness is not “seeker friendly”, it is intensely Jesus-centered worship and obedience.

Philippians 3:8-11 AMP 

8 Yes, furthermore, I count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege (the overwhelming preciousness, the surpassing worth, and supreme advantage) of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him [of perceiving and recognizing and understanding Him more fully and clearly]. For His sake I have lost everything and consider it all to be mere rubbish (refuse, dregs), in order that I may win (gain) Christ (the Anointed One),

9 And that I may [actually] be found and known as in Him, not having any [self-achieved] righteousness that can be called my own, based on my obedience to the Law’s demands (ritualistic uprightness and supposed right standing with God thus acquired), but possessing that [genuine righteousness] which comes through faith in Christ (the Anointed One), the [truly] right standing with God, which comes from God by [saving] faith.

10 [For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him, perceiving and recognizing and understanding the wonders of His Person more strongly and more clearly], and that I may in that same way come to know the power outflowing from His resurrection [which it exerts over believers], and that I may so share His sufferings as to be continually transformed [in spirit into His likeness even] to His death, [in the hope]

11 That if possible I may attain to the [spiritual and moral] resurrection [that lifts me] out from among the dead [even while in the body].



Ancestral Memories

I have recently learned something about Dissociative Identity Disorder-Satanic Ritual Abuse (DID-SRA) memory that has turned my healing in God’s direction more joyfully. While I am a healed multiple, I have continued to have serious difficulty in relating to Jesus because He walked on earth as a Man. For the same reason I have not been close to Father-God. I understood that God was nothing like my cruel earthly father, and neither was Jesus like any earthly man. But I couldn’t relate to them.

As an adult professional, when there was a serious conflict with a man, I simply surrendered to him whatever he demanded. As an aside: the most serious conflicts with men in my adult life were religious leaders.

It seemed to me that my responses of fear and anger toward men I could not respect were out of proportion to whatever their offense, and I felt puzzled. Worse, I could only relate to God the Father and Son from a subtle distance that, of course, they were aware of.

I had done renunciation prayers of many kinds including ancestral bondages all of which were helpful. Then recently I heard someone mention generational memories and that struck a note. There were a number of articles on the Internet about memories in descendants of the horrors of prison camps of the Jews during World War II. There are studies of trauma that was passed to children and grandchildren of other traumatic situations such as 9/11.

One of my grandmothers was a first generation German-American Jew and I can remember her terror of being imprisoned. (Fear isn’t logical.) And in my genealogical research I remember finding one distant grandmother with three little children who abandoned her little ones, disappearing without a trace.  Knowing that family line, I came to the conclusion that she was so violently abused that she couldn’t stay in that home and ran away. But my memories were far more violent than those experiences and I had no explanation for them.

Finally, one day I was listening to a DID-SRA minister who commented that he had met some individuals who had very severe memories of past generations that hindered their spiritual growth and the Holy Spirit opened my spirit’s mind with a start to the sudden realization that this was my situation as well.

I quickly confessed the violent iniquities on behalf of my ancestral fathers and asked for their forgiveness. (Vengeance belongs to the Lord.) Then I asked the Lord to comfort and heal me on behalf of my generational mothers by restoring my DNA to His initial design. Already I sense a freedom in enjoying my heavenly Father and my beautiful Redeemer whose love beggars description. I am deeply grateful to the sacred Holy Spirit for revealing this to me so that I can continue to grow in intimacy with the beautiful Trinity. I never would have imagined that traumas from past centuries would show up in my life, and I am so thankful that I know the Triune God-head who knows all, who understands us, and cares to the point of death and resurrection to set us free to live as they intended from the beginning.

I include the references below so the reader can see what secular science has decided about ancestral memories, but from experience I can tell you that only Jesus can heal and restore such deep wounds that leach through our DNA to the present.



There Is No Enchantment Against Jacob

I received a text message at 6am. A businessman in a large city was planning a trip with two of his sons and their families but he was having a severe attack of vertigo and needed intercession.

I asked the Holy One how to pray and He revealed that the vertigo was a curse from a group of men who rented a building on a prime piece of property owned by the businessman. Their CEO was a high priestess of these men as a satanic coven. I already knew this from a former conversation with the businessman. The issue was that the coven wanted the property and had placed a curse on the owner to get what they wanted. The owner is a Spirit-filled man and understood what was happening but he had limited understanding of spiritual warfare so he was asking me for help.

As I sought the Lord for instructions I felt that he was being hit from two directions. His bloodline was also a burden holding him in captivity and making him more vulnerable to the current attack by the coven.

Numbers chapters 22-24 and Isaiah 49 came to mind regarding the businessman’s assignment from the Lord – his life promise from God. Numbers 22-24 is the story of Balaam and Balak where Balak is king of Moab who feels threatened by Israel. Balaam is a foreteller of power and influence so the king hires him to curse Israel. Balaam tried but could not because God had told him clearly that He wouldn’t allow it.

Numbers 23:19-20, 23a God is not a man that He should tell or act a lie, neither the son of man that He should feel repentance or compunction [for what He has promised], Has He said and shall He not do it? Or has He spoken and shall He not make it good? You see, I have received His command to bless Israel. He has blessed and I cannot reverse or qualify it. Surely there is no enchantment against Jacob, neither is there any divination against Israel…

 Isaiah 49:24-26 (NKJV) Shall the prey be taken from the mighty, Or the captives of the righteous be delivered? But thus says the Lord: “Even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, And the prey of the terrible be delivered; For I will contend with him who contends with you, And I will save your children. I will feed those who oppress you with their own flesh, And they shall be drunk with their own blood as with sweet wine. All flesh shall know that I, the Lord, am your Savior, And your Redeemer, the Mighty One of Jacob.

I shared these Scriptures with the businessman and we agreed on them. Almost immediately I became sick with severe allergies and my nose ran like a brook in  springtime. I reminded my spirit that it had dominion over my soul and body and asked for negation of the backlash from the coven. The next morning I knew that the allergies ploy had been canceled. I got a text from the businessman who was with his family at the airport for their planned vacation. He was 80% better, and I knew he would also recover, hidden under the wings of his Savior and Redeemer.

As I thought about what had happened I marveled that one person in the Holy Spirit took on a whole coven and won a resounding victory! The former post about Monsters came to mind. If we choose God’s way there is nothing that can come up against the Creator-God. NOTHING!



Corrupted Genetics

As I understand it, God created a system of beings before creating the earth and humanity to dwell on it. That first creation was called the “sons of God” with the supreme being named Lucifer. These sons of God had free moral agency, freedom of choice, and when Lucifer decided to challenge his Creator a number of the sons of God chose to follow Lucifer in rebellion.

Apparently the sons of God were very similar to mankind because they had the ability to procreate with the daughters of men. The half-breeds were called Nephilim and the skeletal remains of these giants can be found all over the earth.

The half-breeds resulted in defilement of mankind in Lucifer’s effort to defeat God’s purpose in creating humans for fellowship with Him. Lucifer has a plan for global domination so he will then be god to rule over mankind and the earth. From Lucifer will come the unholy trinity as a counterfeit for our Creator-God, God’s only Son, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, with Lucifer himself playing the main role of god.

Lucifer has a big surprise coming, however, for he is a created being and he thinks to challenge his Creator. Those Lucifer has successfully deceived into believing they will be rulers of the nations are working tirelessly for their place in the hierarchy of domination.

The desire to rule the world can be traced back to Nimrod the Mighty Hunter and the Tower of Babel. Most of the gods and goddesses mentioned as springing from Nimrod and his wife can be found in mythology and are meant to parallel God’s plans. The parallel plans of evil will appeal to and darken the minds of the people of earth. One way they intend to gain popular support is to create geographic regions  of chaos and then come into the situation with solutions for peace. We are seeing that unfolding right now across the earth.

In defiling humanity, not only are half-breeds being used, but also clones and robots. Recently artificial wombs are being developed so that neither fathers or mothers will be necessary for reproduction of mankind. Spiritual warfare as in decrees and binding and loosing will not be effective against these part human beings so followers of Jesus will need to learn new ways of coming against them. Appeals to Jesus as the Ancient of Days will be our recourse to remove them and dispense with them according to His wisdom.

One observation: Lucifer is not mentioned in connection with Satan in the Bible.

If you would like to learn more about Nimrod and the Tower of Babel, I would suggest Santa-Tizing by Robin Main. She has done considerable research and has included  extensive notes in addition to valuable text. The organization of her book isn’t strong, but the information keeps one captivated. I also recommend Daniel Duvall’s Bride Ministries for excellent information. On a prayers page, Duvall has a prayer for disengaging from corrupt genetics: Freedom from Illuminati Bloodline Genetics. That prayer site lists more recent family lines that defile one’s genetics. Restoration in Christ Ministries also has free renunciation prayers.

Moving down through history briefly, the Merovingian bloodline from 300 AD to 800 AD is an ancient beginning of an effort to rule the world. Those who are interested in genealogy may find some of the Merovingian kings in their ancestry. They morph into the Illuminati and then into Freemasonry which defiles human bloodlines. Their power needs to be broken to live a life free of curses and covenants that bind and hinder one’s walk with Jesus. Blood covenants are meant to be eternal whether evil or good. Not only blood will extend the curses but also sexual rituals and mind-altering drugs. Thus, very ancient curses and covenants can be renewed by sex, bloodshed and drugs up to the present day.

My ancestry contains four lines to the Merovingian kings and since I have pressed into God for emotional healing of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), cosmic beings have come to me urgently demanding sex. Thank God the Holy Spirit is intensely jealous. The first time this happened I commanded them to flee, and the Holy Spirit appeared like a flash of lightning. Those beings were gone! I prayed renunciation prayers but it has taken more than a year to eventually get free from such defiling harassment because I have worked alone. The freedom to worship the Savior in peace and joy, hard won, is very precious!






The Broken Image

I have just finished reading The Broken Image: Restoring Personal Wholeness through Healing Prayer by Leanne Payne and want to set down a few comments. She avoids using professional language but rather, uses her own descriptive words to discuss various situations.

Ms Payne believes that healing from the most severe type of wounded infants is all but impossible (p.108). This is the complete lack of acknowledgement and bonding of the infant by the mother. There is no tactile communication, no eye contact with no speech or physical play. No indication that the infant exists. The infant grows up feeling like he/she is a ghost – not present – because his/her presence isn’t acknowledged.

As this deeply wounded individual begins to seek love to relieve their pain, they have no point of reference and will seek love in an inappropriate way.  Mankind is a fallen creature and has little understanding of what is right. The traumatized will find temporary relief from pain in sexual activity, either heterosexual or homosexual, generally looking for a nurturing mother, father, or other warm accepting relationship.

Nearly all of these broken individuals will try masturbation until they realize that it fails to meet their love-hunger. Some of these persons will never act on their inner compulsions but their minds are focused on the need for love almost constantly. Those who have some religious training will be troubled by defiling thoughts. The need for emotional healing cannot come from helpers who judge the wounded one, for he/she senses the judgment and will withdraw.

The truth that is lacking in healing of the deeply wounded is the understanding of the “old nature” and the “new birth” (Eph. 4:22-24). The natural mind is opposed to God and must be submitted to the discipline of the human spirit who has given him/her self to Jesus. This is not a concept taught in church; indeed, this idea is foreign to most churches. Paul discusses it in his writings in the New Testament and declared that the “old man” must be crucified on Jesus’ cross. The new birth brings a freedom from bondage to sin and sinful behaviors. It also brings an incredible awareness of supernatural love from Jesus and the Father and the Holy Spirit that he/she has never imagined possible. The broken one needs to be encouraged to pursue God’s infinite love and begin the process of maturing in the Lord.

The reason so few individuals with severe abuse ever experience complete  healing rises from two sources. They are never introduced to Jesus; or having been introduced to Him, they find that following Him in disciplining the soul and strengthening the spirit takes constant vigilance, constant focus on Jesus. We are to take every thought captive to the obedience of the Lord (Isaiah 26:3; II Cor. 10:5). The spirit is meant to have dominion over the soul but culture trains the individual to develop a whopping soul that rules. The spirit is made to commune with our Creator God and direct the disciplined soul and body. Few ministers/counselors address the issue of healing and developing maturity in one’s spirit.

When the infant suffers failure to bond with parents, especially the mother, he/she often experiences fear and hopelessness which eventually will produce a passive personality. The spirit is crushed. If the survivor presses hard into Jesus and allows the Holy Spirit to love and guide them, hope will begin to rise and fear will be addressed in fellowship with the gentle Holy Spirit; thus, passivity will slowly be healed.

I can assure my readers that this is a beautiful journey with our Creator-God  who loves each individual with intense passion and tender, gracious love. He created us for fellowship and He yearns for us to discover Him in all His committed faithfulness and purity. He beggars description as He meets our deepest needs.

Knowledge vs Experience

Ephesians 3:19 AMP [That you may really come] to know [practically, through experience for yourselves] the love of Christ, which far surpasses mere knowledge [without experience]; that you may be filled [through all your being] unto all the fullness of God [may have the richest measure of the divine Presence, and become a body wholly filled and flooded with God Himself]!

Do you find that spending time alone each day with the Lord in the Word and in prayer to be difficult? If so, you do not know experientially the love of Jesus as deeply as you should. After getting married, just reading your spouse’s love letters will hardly be satisfying! Once you taste Jesus’ indescribably sweet love you will look forward to communing with Him daily.

After having repented of our sins and iniquities we will realize the incredible love of our Savior and be drawn into His love like no other love we have ever experienced. Paul prays that we will be able to comprehend with the saints the limitless love of Jesus that surpass knowledge. Paul admonishes followers of Jesus to be filled with all the fullness of God. As many have said, this is the purpose of all communion. This singleness of focus is the journey that will bring us to maturity in Him.

  1. The sturdy Oak tree

To be rooted in love pictures a sturdy, growing Oak tree that sinks down a tap  root that holds it in place to withstand hurricane force winds and fierce floods.  Even so, the Christian life is a living, growing relationship with God. Love is the first-listed fruit of the Spirit (Gal. 5:22). If you are walking in the power of the Holy Spirit, love will manifest in your life. Conversely, if you are not growing in demonstrable love for God and others, you are not walking in the Spirit.

We need to be very realistic in applying Paul’s point here. Some come into the Christian life from an upbringing where love was nonexistent. They have known only anger, abuse, and fear. But, when they hear about the love of Jesus on the cross, they trust Him as Savior, and they step into a brand new incredible relationship. But since they have never experienced genuine love, they shrink from Physical touch. Paul’s words here suggest that they must begin to sink down that tap root into God’s love and build a foundation centered on loving and trusting God. Love must become the motive for all that they think and do.

Too often new believers are directed into acquiring Bible knowledge. But,  knowledge without love only feeds pride (1 Cor. 8:1). Paul says that if we have all knowledge, but do not have love, we are nothing (1 Cor. 13:2). God is to be our focus. By focusing on Him alone we will become like Him. That’s where loving others comes into play.

Unfortunately new believers are also often pushed into working for the Lord. But if such service is not rooted and grounded in love, it profits us nothing (1 Cor. 13:3). At the heart of loving God is dying to self, and none of us dies to self without a struggle. Just as the test of a tree’s roots is a strong storm, so the test of your love is when these sorts of trials hit.

  1. Comprehending Christ’s love does not come naturally.

“To be able to comprehend,” or, “to have the strength to grasp” this immense love of Jesus is not a humanly attainable goal. We must have the Holy Spirit’s help. This is a lifetime quest; thus, we can never say, “I’m there!”

  1. Love matures in community.

Paul prays that we may be able to comprehend with all the saints this measureless love of Jesus. Quite often we grow in love when another believer demonstrates the love of Jesus to us during a time of distress or need. Sometimes we grow in Jesus’ love when we have to work through relational difficulties with another believer. Any love that is merely theoretical and has not been tested in difficult relationships will not stand the test. Genuine love must be worked out with people. That requires that we grow in patience, kindness,  forgiveness, humility and self discipline.

  1. Knowing Jesus’ love is the journey of a lifetime.

Paul writes (3:18-19), that we may be able to comprehend “what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge” It is a deliberate paradox. We can know something of His great love, and it is definite knowledge, not just speculation. But, in another sense we can never know it completely, because God is infinite.

The measurements that Paul gives emphasize the immensity of Jesus’ love. You can go as far as you can, and you still will not have explored all that there is to know of Jesus’ great love.

We can never get to the end of such immense love! We need to ask “Do I know His love experientially more today than I did a year ago?”

The ultimate goal of knowing Jesus is, “that you may be filled to all the fullness of God” (Eph. 3:19). Paul is praying that we will attain to spiritual perfection, having all that God is to fill us to overflowing. As our capacity to receive His beautiful character grows, He keeps filling us again and again. So we should join Paul (Phil. 3:14) in pressing “on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”

Application Questions

Knowledge gained through experience is far superior and many times more useful than bookish knowledge. Mahatma Gandhi. Do you think most people would agree with this? Do you? What Scriptural support can you give?

How can a person from an abusive background learn to trust and love God?

Why would Albert Einstein say “The only source of knowledge is experience”.

Can that idea apply to the Christian also? Do you have Scripture for your opinion?

How does walking in the power of the Holy Spirit relate to experiencing Jesus’ love? Support your position with Scripture.

Additional Scriptures

Philippians 3:8 More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ,

10 that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to His death;

John 10:14 “I am the good shepherd, and I know My own and My own know Me,

John 17:3 This is eternal life, that they may know You, the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom You have sent.

1 John 2:3 By this we know that we have come to know Him, if we keep His commandments. 4. The one who says, “I have come to know Him,” and does not keep His commandments, is a liar, and the truth is not in him;

1 John 5:20  And we know that the Son of God has come, and has given us understanding so that we may know Him who is true; and we are in Him who is true, in His Son Jesus Christ This is the true God and eternal life.

Quotes about experience 

He knows the water best who has waded through it. Danish Proverb

That learning which thou gettest by thy own observation and experience is far beyond that which thou gettest by precept; as the knowledge of a traveler exceeds that which is got by reading. Thomas à Kempis





Unusual Encounter

I had gone to Walmart to buy several tubes of grape juice. But I forgot my glasses which I need for reading and couldn’t see the ingredients list. Quickly looking around I saw two girls shopping on the opposite side of the isle so I stepped over and asked for help. They graciously stopped to help me and I was embarrassed when I realized I had picked up a tube of orange juice instead. So we went back to the juice case and picked up a tube of grape juice and one young lady read the ingredients list to me. I thanked her and they went on their way.

My home town population is less than 20,000 but we do sometimes see strangers. The two girls who helped me were unusually tall, wore different colored patches of frizzy hair and they had on boots up to their knees. Their other clothes were unremarkable although a bit like a thrift store. Yet they were courteous.

When I got home I asked the Holy One what the significance of that encounter was. The girls acted as one when helping me choose the right product so I surmised that they may have been lesbians. But I’ve never been one to prejudge others; I enjoy those who are different from me. That’s part of my qualification as a carrier of the Good News to other peoples and cultures.

The precious Holy One whispered that He would like me to pray for the two young women, so I spent some time searching the Spirit’s heart for them and then speaking to their hearts. I asked the Holy One to reveal Jesus to them through dreams and other encounters. I dispatched angels to send them other encounters with believers and in whatever other ways He thought best. I also asked the Holy One to put a cloud of protection around them to put the enemy in confusion while He works in their lives. What an honor to partner with Him in His incredible love for the people around us every day.

Church as God

Recently I visited a lady who wanted to hear stories of my years of teaching in China. So for two hours I told stories of God’s amazing goodness to me in a strange land. She was in tears and asked me to pray that she might have such an intimate relationship with the Holy Spirit as I did, so I prayed for her and the sweet Presence settled near and precious. Then we made an appointment for me to return the coming evening. But when I knocked on her door the next evening she had forgotten I was coming and was occupied. She said she would phone me when she had time for another session.

The Holy Spirit had already told me that she would be listening to a lying spirit so I wasn’t taken unawares by her evasiveness, but I could feel the Spirit’s disappointment. I knew the lady’s church would never approve of her hunger and thirst for more of the Lord. Her church was her lord.

In a culture of loneliness, religion fills a gap. Social support systems are very important to humans. The attraction of the Spirit when two followers of Jesus meet is powerful but fellowship isn’t always possible because of physical distance between them. For example, I live in a rural area where there are no churches that encourage the kind of intimacy with Jesus and the sweet Spirit that I enjoy. Sometimes I feel like a flag pole on a hill – alone and abandoned. The Holy One knows my isolation, however, and He presses in close in an intimacy that I probably wouldn’t experience if Christian fellowship were present and rich.

Because of this isolation, pleasure with Jesus and the sweet Holy Spirit are deeply satisfying. One day as I was preparing the evening meal I smelled Gardenia. Gardenia?! In the kitchen where I’m cooking fish? I had done something to offend Jesus earlier in the day and was once more apologizing to Him when I smelled my favorite flower fragrance. He was saying: “Joyce, I love you. Stop the apologizing – I heard and forgive you – let’s get on with our friendship.” What a beautiful way for Him to express forgiveness.

Earlier this summer I was driving through a large city when I came upon major road construction with whole sections of the Interstate closed. I saw quite a few cars turn off onto a local street – so I followed them. Sure enough, they came out where I was hoping to go also. Again, I felt cared for because I had followed the small nudge of my intimate Friend.

Years ago when I sought and received the Holy Spirit baptism, my church was horrified. I chose Him over my church and have never been sorry or looked back. Jesus is truly Lord of my life and I love Him dearly. He is worthy of the sacrifice of things and people that have demanded loyalty but can never meet the deep needs of a hungry heart.

Denial of Abuse

Yesterday there was a wedding in my extended family. The groom was my sister’s grandson and she had so wanted to attend, but lived out of state and wasn’t able to come because of health issues. The Holy Spirit had impressed on me His concern for my sister and her children. I sensed an urgency and had been spending extra time in prayer for them. Before the ceremony I laid down for a nap and awoke later with tears flowing down my cheeks. My spirit had not been napping.

All of my sister’s children were present for the wedding and reception. As I was leaving the reception to come home, her eldest came to speak to me although we hadn’t had a conversation in many years. I was surprised and listened carefully to her spoken words and her unspoken fears.

I certainly understood what the daughter was trying to say. Individuals who have experienced heavy, ongoing abuse and are yet in denial suffer more than those who acknowledge the things that happened to them. As the ones in denial marry and have children, those children suffer soul and spirit pain  intensely without understanding why. So it is for my sister and her family.

Fear is a major tormentor in the system of the severely abused

I John 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear: because fear has torment. He that fears is not made perfect in love.

The abuse continues to travel down the generational line, especially in families in denial. I dealt with Fear early in my healing journey so I could relate to what my niece was trying to convey and was utterly thrilled that she was opening the door to conversation with me. The Holy Spirit knows how to gently open doors at the right time and I am grateful for His gentle, loving ways.

While others of my siblings have gained freedom from Freemasonry curses, this one remains in denial. Generational curses coming from Freemasonry are particularly vicious and tenacious and require godly motivation to drive them out. No matter how much persistence is necessary, never give up. Freedom from the defiling bondage of Freemasonry is well worth the effort.

There are free on-line prayers to break generational curses of Freemasonry and other secret societies at Restoration in Christ Ministries.